Yes, I have been unusually quiet for the last 10 days. The reason for this is, that the last 10 days have been an emotional roller coaster ride for me, which made me cry tears of pain and tears of joy (sometimes at the same time) on an almost daily basis.
The event that marked the beginning of those intense 10 days is that I met a wonderful person. This person, of which I will surely tell more when the time is right, made me realize that I was in a state of limbo. Drifting, rather than actively living my second life.
The event that marked the end of those intense 10 days was that I finally could embrace my wonderful partner Gina Glimmer in-world again, after having spoken barely for about 15 minutes total during the last 10 weeks. And in an amicable athmosphere, with full trust, love and appreciation, we resolved our partnership at the same place where I proposed to her almost exactly 6 months before. I hugged and kissed my SL wife for a last time, only to hug and kiss her as my closest SL friend the second later.
Between those two events, I had to intentionally hurt one of my friends, with whom I hope friendship can be achieved again after some healing has taken place. And between those events I unintentionally hurt another friend of whose feelings I was not aware.
Between those two events, I also experienced the most intense and most shaking hour I ever had in SL, and on which I tend to report in a bit. And between those events I happened to find myself on the racing track for Relay for Life, fundraising for cancer research, and all the time thinking of my mother who struggles with this illness.
I have come full circle now, and I am ready to start my second lap in SL. Those 10 days leave me matured, and with sharpened senses. And my thank goes to my ex-wife and now friend Gina, my SL sister Trinity, my friend Ivanova, and to a very special person - thank you all for not letting me down, for being fair, for being brutally honest, for hugging me when I needed it, for listening, and for encouraging me.
My second lap in SL wll start now.
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/me wonders who was brutally honest :)
*hugs*
Wow. It sounds like you have been through a gut wrenching, intense period and come out of it stronger. SL gives us the opportunity to grow and experience things in a way simply not possible in RL which can be painful as anything and more beautiful than can be expressed in words. You are lucky to have the deep friendships you have described.
Hugs to you and my best wishes for continued happiness.
Tough times are often times of intense personal growth and times to look back on and think "wow, I got through that and I'm glad", but at the midst of them they stink.
I'm glad we met, Peter, and I'm looking forward to lots more learning ahead, hopefully not all so painful.
*hugs*
Sxx
Oh Peter...
That post leaves me with far more questions than answers, so I'm glad you promised to unpack many of those experiences in future posts. But in the meantime, thanks for persevering, and for being strong enough to invite others into your journey so that we may learn, and care about you, in the process.
-Night
Points peter in the direction of the Nuse and Hangman contrapation that he has made Ha Ha Ha
Mwhahahaha
Constance hugs peter like she always does and smiles
Excellent post, Peter. I'm reminded that SL allows us, sometimes forces us, to face, head-on, those feelings and emotions that for whatever reason we are more easily able to shove under a rug in our FL. How blessed you are to be surrounded by so many who enrich your life, and who allow you to enrich theirs. Best wishes, my plurky friend.
That's tough Peter, I'm sorry and happy too. I'm glad that you've got it settled and can move on.
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