September 11, 2013

Found a little something all shape creators, professional or personal, ought to memorize...

HA4A XIX by ~leadbirdie on deviantART

July 27, 2013

Fashion Feeds

For those of you (still) using my aggregated fashion feeds: due to the recent shutdown of Google Reader, the aggregate feeds are currently unavailable. Since I have been approached about the feeds, I am loking for an alternative at the moment. Google Reader acted as input to my feed wrangling magic - I have to evaluate a few alternatives before I switch the service back on again.

June 07, 2012

On Mesh

One of the beauties of SL was, that every clothing and every garment fitted right away.

Mesh brought us great looking, but ill fitting clothes.

One step closer to reality.

June 14, 2011

Knee jerk reactions

My friend Chav Paderborn often has some funny, dorky or eclectic ideas. Her new dabbling is taking a below-the-belt swing against the latest fashion of breedable pets. In a humorous way she built a stall selling breedable prims, along with outrageous food bills and the promise of super rare items. Everybody who has heard about breedable pets - even hardcore breeders I talked to - could not help but chuckle about this piece of art.

Except my landlord.

Less than 24 hours after I have set up the stall on my land, it got returned to me without any comment. After inquiring, I got the one-liner "breedables are not allowed on our estates" back.

Mind you, Chav's creation does not actually breed. Nor does it actually sell anything. It only includes one script at all, reacting to touch, and giving you one of the plywood cubes shown on the image.

Yet my landlord saw "breedable", and in best established shoot-first-ask-later fashion, returned the object.

Sometimes, actually LOOKING and READING first, and if in doubt, ASKING next, would do the trick.

Oh well...

May 23, 2011

Are immersionists an endangered species?

Sometimes I use the store-alt to "get away", and go exploring without the burden of a very full contact list. The store alt is a female avatar with a beautiful green skin - without being a pixie or a faery or another mythological creature. Immersionist that I am, when using the store-alt for exploring, it is easy to slip into the character, to be her, to feel like her.

Yesterday I explored a sim from the Showcase, when a 5 day old "Resident" account approached me.

Newb: Your skin is green.
Me: Well spotted.
Newb: I have to ask, why did you make your skin green?
Me: I was born that way.
Newb: rofl. You have a dryad avatar then. Or an Ent avatar?
Me: I am a human. Born with green skin. Don't tell me you have never seen a green skinned human before?
Newb: lololol

This person has probably never heard about immersionists and augmentists before. he was cracking up, thinking I was some kind of nutcase. But the conversation left me baffled. For me, it is natural to BE one with the avatar. When I take the green Lady out, I AM the green Lady. For him, it's like a clothing layer. Today I use the Dryad avatar, tomorrow the robot avatar, and for the weekend I take a bodybuilder.

I wonder hwo had the nicer experience? The green girl, walking wide eyed through a beautiful, futuristic and enchanted landscape? Or the guy who tries out this funny video game where you can meet nutters from all over.

Of course I am biased. For me, SL is about the immersion. SL is a magical country, and enchanted realm. I know it is not for many others. It's a game with lame graphics and no specific goal. Is there a right, or a wrong?

It makes me wonder if immersionists are an endangered species. In my early SL days I barely heard questions for one's age or location. These days it seems one of the first questions new contacts ask. The ASL-question defines you in the real world. Why do we need this RL anchor in a virtual environment? What benefit do I have from knowing that the person I am speaking with is 38 and from New Hampshire, when I am far more fascinated with the detailed mechanics of her android shape.

Are these the ramblings of an outdated oldbie? Or are we losing the magic?

May 26, 2010

Of voids

Do I still have readers after more than 2 months of silence? Two months of silence. Almost 10 weeks of not blogging. That seemed unthinkable a while ago. But I was not only lazy with blogging; I was barely online in SL as well. Having been reliably online daily for the better part of 3 years, nowadays I can only been found in-world once or twice a week. So what happened?

What happened is that I have a new RL job.

"Oh!", you may think now, "This new job keeps you busy and you have to impress your new boss with loads of overtime and 140% commitment!"

No, that is not it. Of course the job keeps me busy, but it does not come with an extra investment in time. What happened however is that this job fills a void that previously got filled by SL.

Regular readers of my ramblings might remember that I often mentioned a certain hardship in my RL. A close family member suffers from a medical condition - which overshadows my life. In addition to that, my (old) RL job has turned into a nightmare during the past three years. I was trapped between a rock and a hard place, and before I found SL I was pretty much depressive. I was on a bad path, and I lacked many, many things in my RL. Respect. Appreciation. Peace. Success. Financial freedom. Companionship. Trust. Tenderness. Love.

I got all this from SL. And plenty of it.

You might think this is pathetic. I tend to think it saved my life one way or the other. For a few hours each day I found what I was craving for. I found peace. I found respect. I enjoyed success and financial freedom. At the same time that my abusive RL boss tried psychological warfare on me and told me how much I suck at what I do - I established and built the leading text service provider in SL. While I got told that the work I did the last 10 years was a piece of shit, that I suck at marketing, that I suck at selling, that I suck at networking - nonetheless I became a boss in SL myself, a business partner of some of the biggest names in SL, got a certain public exposure, got nominated as social butterfly, got nominated twice as Entrepreneur of the Year, became a SL Solution Provider.

Cynics might suggest that I had better invested this energy on my RL job. And maybe they are right. But talk is cheap, and I had the impression I was fighting a losing battle anyways - which got confirmed by friends and family. People, who had no reason to lie to me.

After a specifically abusive incident in late summer 2009 I finally had enough and started looking for a new job. My family situation made me reluctant to give up the security of my old job (as bad as it might have been - it seemed secure). Getting my CV in order and browsing job listings gave me new energy. I became bolder in job applications; I became less intimidated in my old job. And finally I found a new job.

And then something unexpected happened. The significance SL had for my life dropped overnight.

I started my new job - and did not log into SL for almost a week. I was so energized for my new job, and I was so stunned (in a positive way) of the new tasks, the new projects, and the new challenges.... I sat on my couch in the evening, totally exhausted (in a good way), and read, watched TV or played Open Transport Tycoon Deluxe - a vintage computer game.

To be honest, I feared I was addicted to SL. It was both a relieving as well as a strange realization that I am not addicted at all!

Recent research suggests that there is no such thing as addiction. That it is only stimulation and fulfillment of needs, and as soon as the needs get fulfilled in another way, the addiction vanishes. I am a prime example for this. I had the need for a respectful, appreciative environment. I did not get it in my RL, but found it in SL. So I became addicted to SL. Now I work for a company that WANTS me, that CHOSE me out of countless applicants, that NEEDS my skills, that WANTS my creativity, that gives me freedom, recognition and trust - and by this fills the void that SL used to fill.

No, don't worry, this is not another of those "I am leaving SL" posts.

I have no intention to leave SL. I like SL. It is still an environment in which I want to relax (and yes, running two businesses IS relaxing for me) , in which I have friends. However I need to reassess my time - and plan it better. Right now I am thinking of setting aside one evening for my SL-businesses, and another evening for fun, meeting friends, exploring. There are lots of things to do: I want to relocate Babel and create a small creative plaza with my friends Nissa and Ivanova. I want to pick up photography again, and - having worked with digital video some years ago - finally try machinima in SL. I neglected my social life, and I want to WIN Entrepreneur of the Year this time.

It is actually a nice feeling. Now that the subtle pressure of filling a void is gone, I can look at SL from a new angle. SL gave me a lot over the past 3 years, now it is a new chapter in my relationship with SL, and I look forward what it can give me at this stage.

March 14, 2010

Tagged - Step 2

Tagged - Step 2, originally uploaded by Peter Stindberg.

Crystal tagged me, and since I did not do a meme this year, so here we go...

Handle with care

1. I am very shy. It takes long before I speak to someone, a little less in SL, more so in RL.

2. I have self-esteem issues, can't accept praise easily, don't think highly of my achievements, and generally think I can't really live up to expectations.

3. (Self-)doubt and fear are constant companyons. Fear of loss, fear to annoy.

4. I try to avoid people with the same nationality I have, try to avoid talking my native tongue in SL. There are very few people in SL with whom I talk in my mother tongue. The tought of sharing intimacies in that language is horrible.

5. If you get to know me and earn my trust I will be one of your most loyal and caring friends.

6. I prefer jeans over skirts, short hair over long hair, small breasts over large busts and generally am attracted more to the tomboyish/androgynous women.

7. SL helped me to discover and embrace my bisexuality.

8. My musical taste is extremely broad, but my love is with celtic folkrock, celtic fusion and celtic crossover. I tried to learn Gaelic once.

Maybe I tage you, maybe I don't....

Fashion notices:
- Hair: Truth Peta
- Jacket: Elixir
- Suit: Graves
- Shoulderpads: Oralune
- Shoes:
- Bangles:
- Glasses